Monday, May 4, 2015
Wednesday, April 15, 2015
Truth
Today's Angel Card is Truth.
I feel like I keep picking this one.
The state of being the case. I need to work on stepping outside of myself and looking at the bigger picture to get a better grasp of what "the truth" is. There are so many area's of my life where the lines of truth and perception are blurred. What I thought was truth was nothing more than a flowery fancy fallacy. And what I thought could never be the case was indeed the true state of being.
Fact is stranger than fiction sometimes... and I need to really take a hard look at what is real - what is truth - and what isn't.
I feel like I keep picking this one.
Full Definition of TRUTH
2
a (1) : the state of being the case : fact (2) : the body of real things, events, and facts : actuality (3) often capitalized : a transcendent fundamental or spiritual reality
b : a judgment, proposition, or idea that is true or accepted as true <truths of thermodynamics>
c : the body of true statements and propositions
3
a : the property (as of a statement) of being in accord with fact or reality
b chiefly British : true 2
c : fidelity to an original or to a standard
The state of being the case. I need to work on stepping outside of myself and looking at the bigger picture to get a better grasp of what "the truth" is. There are so many area's of my life where the lines of truth and perception are blurred. What I thought was truth was nothing more than a flowery fancy fallacy. And what I thought could never be the case was indeed the true state of being.
Fact is stranger than fiction sometimes... and I need to really take a hard look at what is real - what is truth - and what isn't.
Tuesday, April 7, 2015
Healing
Today's Angel Card is Healing.
I didn't do a very good job here. I did quite a bit of journal entries the old fashioned way, but didn't quite get them transferred over. But I kept entering the words for a while. You don't need my thoughts to draw your own inspiration from the word of the day.
To draw healing feels like a slap in the face today. My body is in rough shape. I haven't told anyone just how bad it's really gotten lately. Truth be told I don't want to go to the Dr. After several years in a row of surgery and being left to feel more and more like a science experiment and less like a person, it gets old quick.
But I'm working on healing my heart. It's been a rough month... I could use some self kindness and healing.
I didn't do a very good job here. I did quite a bit of journal entries the old fashioned way, but didn't quite get them transferred over. But I kept entering the words for a while. You don't need my thoughts to draw your own inspiration from the word of the day.
To draw healing feels like a slap in the face today. My body is in rough shape. I haven't told anyone just how bad it's really gotten lately. Truth be told I don't want to go to the Dr. After several years in a row of surgery and being left to feel more and more like a science experiment and less like a person, it gets old quick.
But I'm working on healing my heart. It's been a rough month... I could use some self kindness and healing.
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Wednesday, February 4, 2015
Awakening
Today's Angel Card is Awakening.
There have been a couple times in my life when I have had "Ah ha!" moments where I really thought I had things figured out. That I had my eyes opened as to what was really going on around me. Both in positive and negative ways.
Maya Angelou was definitely a wise woman. And it's true... we can choose to be blind. Lately I've been approaching situations with my eyes open. I would rather be fully awakened and see what is coming than play ignorant and be absolutely blindsided by things later down the road. It's definitely a form of protection.
"Awakening" also makes me think of Buddha. Spiritual Awakening. Opening up of the body, mind and spirit to reach a higher level of consciousness. I know I'm not ready for something like that, but I strive to be able to achieve something similar someday.
There have been a couple times in my life when I have had "Ah ha!" moments where I really thought I had things figured out. That I had my eyes opened as to what was really going on around me. Both in positive and negative ways.
Maya Angelou was definitely a wise woman. And it's true... we can choose to be blind. Lately I've been approaching situations with my eyes open. I would rather be fully awakened and see what is coming than play ignorant and be absolutely blindsided by things later down the road. It's definitely a form of protection.
"Awakening" also makes me think of Buddha. Spiritual Awakening. Opening up of the body, mind and spirit to reach a higher level of consciousness. I know I'm not ready for something like that, but I strive to be able to achieve something similar someday.
Tuesday, February 3, 2015
Respect
Today's Angel Card is Respect.
I've lost respect for a lot of people in my life. But on the flip side, I've met a lot of new people lately who I hold a great deal of respect for.
Overall, respect is an incredibly selfish notion. Whether or not you respect someone is often based solely on ones opinion. Opinions are extremely emotion based, and facts are often left out. I try to keep an even keel as far as respect goes. For example, I respect Lana DelRay as an artist for her talent and self confidence, regardless of the fact that she romanticizes domestic abuse. Of course, even that is just my opinion.
I do believe respect has 2 faces... The respect that is given to decent human beings strictly for being decent human beings, and the respect that is earned. I try to treat everyone with respect, but once you break my trust and lose my respect, it has to be earned from that point forward.
Respecting myself is a daily work in progress as well. I'd rather offer respect and compassion to a complete stranger, than offer it to myself.
I've lost respect for a lot of people in my life. But on the flip side, I've met a lot of new people lately who I hold a great deal of respect for.
Overall, respect is an incredibly selfish notion. Whether or not you respect someone is often based solely on ones opinion. Opinions are extremely emotion based, and facts are often left out. I try to keep an even keel as far as respect goes. For example, I respect Lana DelRay as an artist for her talent and self confidence, regardless of the fact that she romanticizes domestic abuse. Of course, even that is just my opinion.
I do believe respect has 2 faces... The respect that is given to decent human beings strictly for being decent human beings, and the respect that is earned. I try to treat everyone with respect, but once you break my trust and lose my respect, it has to be earned from that point forward.
Respecting myself is a daily work in progress as well. I'd rather offer respect and compassion to a complete stranger, than offer it to myself.
Monday, February 2, 2015
Expectancy
Today's Angel Card is Expectancy.
I've been thinking about expectations a lot lately. Other peoples expectations of me... My expectations of others... Expectations make me sad, if I'm being honest with myself. Often, my only expectation of other people is that eventually they are going to go away. Whether it's by ending whatever place they have in my life of their own decision, me pushing them away, or by more permanent means. Everyone goes away in the end.
So how can I have a more positive look at expectancy?
For starters, I can stop having expectations of people. This is difficult, but I want to give it a shot.
Another way to make my view more positive is to focus on the positives of the people in my life - the positive habits and quirks that they have that I can depend on - that I can expect from them. I think I'll ponder the people closest to me, and what positive attributes they have that I can count on.
As for everyone's expectation of me... My friends have come to expect that I will always be there for them, no questions asked, under any circumstance. It's a great responsibility, but I'd rather feel overwhelmed and needed, then passed over and forgotten. I only know of one other person in my life that gives of their time to their family and friends in a similar fashion. I just wish we had enough time to give each other a similar level of attention we give to everyone else.
Maybe someday.
But I'm not making it an expectation. No reason to set up any room for disappointment.
I've been thinking about expectations a lot lately. Other peoples expectations of me... My expectations of others... Expectations make me sad, if I'm being honest with myself. Often, my only expectation of other people is that eventually they are going to go away. Whether it's by ending whatever place they have in my life of their own decision, me pushing them away, or by more permanent means. Everyone goes away in the end.
So how can I have a more positive look at expectancy?
For starters, I can stop having expectations of people. This is difficult, but I want to give it a shot.
Another way to make my view more positive is to focus on the positives of the people in my life - the positive habits and quirks that they have that I can depend on - that I can expect from them. I think I'll ponder the people closest to me, and what positive attributes they have that I can count on.
As for everyone's expectation of me... My friends have come to expect that I will always be there for them, no questions asked, under any circumstance. It's a great responsibility, but I'd rather feel overwhelmed and needed, then passed over and forgotten. I only know of one other person in my life that gives of their time to their family and friends in a similar fashion. I just wish we had enough time to give each other a similar level of attention we give to everyone else.
Maybe someday.
But I'm not making it an expectation. No reason to set up any room for disappointment.
Sunday, February 1, 2015
Communication
Today's Angel Card is Communication.
Communication seems like such a simple concept. Say what you mean to say, and don't be afraid to say how you feel. That is not always such a simple thing. Often times we curb what we say, often for the sake of other peoples feelings. While the intention of curbing how you really feel may be from a place of love, it REALLY fucks with the other person.
I need to work on my communication. I have been working on being more clear in all my relationships. I think it makes people nervous when you flat out ask them where you stand in their lives. But it takes a great deal of trust from the other person to answer you honestly, and that can be very difficult.
Another hard part of communication is finding someone willing to listen. Listening without judgment is a bonus. It's hard for me to be able to fully open up. So many people want to invalidate how I feel ("Are you ever going to get over this?" "Why would you do that??") rather than just listen, without trying to fix me, or the situation. Sometimes I just want someone to say "I know things are _____ right now, but everything will be okay. I have faith that you'll figure it out and everything will work out in the end."
Communication seems like such a simple concept. Say what you mean to say, and don't be afraid to say how you feel. That is not always such a simple thing. Often times we curb what we say, often for the sake of other peoples feelings. While the intention of curbing how you really feel may be from a place of love, it REALLY fucks with the other person.
I need to work on my communication. I have been working on being more clear in all my relationships. I think it makes people nervous when you flat out ask them where you stand in their lives. But it takes a great deal of trust from the other person to answer you honestly, and that can be very difficult.
Another hard part of communication is finding someone willing to listen. Listening without judgment is a bonus. It's hard for me to be able to fully open up. So many people want to invalidate how I feel ("Are you ever going to get over this?" "Why would you do that??") rather than just listen, without trying to fix me, or the situation. Sometimes I just want someone to say "I know things are _____ right now, but everything will be okay. I have faith that you'll figure it out and everything will work out in the end."
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